Created on 02/05/2018 byScaryGal
Having a crush is hard especially when you know it will never ever happen. The whole universe is sending you signs to show you that it won't work out and it'll never happen between you both but your heart, your heart has different plans. Your heart is going to skip a beat whenever he messages you, whenever you see a car that looks like his.
Every time you hear his name you're going to blush and want to hide under the covers like a scared child that is frightened of a monster in their closest, but you're not scared...in fact it's the opposite, you want to show them your face and talk to them but instead you hide because you know they won't feel the same way.
It's hard to tell your heart and your brain to stop and shut up but sometimes they get louder, having a crush on someone you know will never like you back is so awful. You can tell them how you feel and they can reject you but your feelings are still going to be there.
I've had a crush on a guy for a while now, about three years and a year ago I told him how I felt and we talked about it and how he doesn't feel the same, I accepted that and we both moved on. We're still friends and we still chat every now and then but my feelings haven't passed.
I'll never tell him how I feel again as he is someone that just sleeps with people and then leaves, he's not really someone that catches feelings and does the whole relationship thing.
Before him, I thought I knew my type, NERDS! I loved my nerds but now...with him it's different. With him I feel different, I'm confident, I'm sassy and I feel good about myself but when I'm not with him I feel the opposite of all those things. It's as if I'm a better person with him.