By Mohrem
2 years ago

Drinking problem

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We all pick that drink with good intentions, to feel better, to fit in, to relax, as a little treat or just to make the party merrier, after all that lovely bottle of wine that you love so much is on sale and you drank a spinach smoothie almost everyday of this week! Nobody chooses to be a drunk or an alcoholic, I prefer to use the term a problem drinker.

Drinks only on the weekend turn into just a glass of wine or a beer after work, its just a treat and after all I have been doing this for months, surely I cannot have a problem, infact I am doing so well and got promoted and a second glass has no chance of doing any harm...what's the point of leaving this bottle open, tomorrow is Friday and we usually don't do much at work, I will just finish it as I listen to some music then head to bed. The next thing I know, I am gulping my wine and crying to the music. I however make it to bed and it is not late at all.

Next day, I manage my headache and urge to vomit and at around 10:00 am, I feel normal again. I love to stay healthy so I detox all day with water and lemon. Work ends at 3:00 pm and I head to my local supermarket to buy a few groceries and drinks for the girls. Later, I put the pizza in the oven and take a warm shower. God, life is great! I have a job, an apartment I can afford and lovely friends! My parents are so proud of me and my skin is fabulous. I need a glass of wine. I have a deep desire to gulp the first glass so I feel merrier then I will continue to sip the rest, I do not have a plan about how much I will drink, it is Friday evening for God's sake.

The girls come in, they are all dressed to go out somewhere, I know how we do it, we drink a little, I think it is not much, at home first then just order a few drinks at the club, we love the coins! As a matter of fact, everyone is hoping that they will dance with a dream guy tonight that will buy them their drink then get into a great relationship which will lead into a successful marriage after their masters degree.

The laughter is great, the pizza is unusually delicious, the gossip is juicy and there is an urge to add more make up after every visit to the bathroom, I have this bottle in the kitchen from which I gulp from every time I have an excuse to leave the living room and later return to drink "normally" with the others.

Problem drinking has lies, you hide your habit, it grows rapidly and each steps is aggressively severe than the last one. Relapse after trying to heal is almost unavoidable, so stop hating yourself, you are not alone and you have another chance, just use it and take it seriously. Addiction to substance will lead you to jail or prison, in a treatment institution, terminally ill, broke, with a disappointed family...friends are more often than not not there anymore or you will die.

2 years
Flutterbydee Goodness, what a sad condition 'problem drinker' is. Thank you for sharing these experiences. Hope it never catches me.
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ze2000 What about changing environment for some time?
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Mohrem Sure, changing environment can be used as one of the tools to enhance treatment. Often, an alcoholic will be caught by people they know in very ridiculous situations and in an attempt to overcome that shame they drink more to forget the experience only to fall into deeper shameful acts and the disease spirals so fast. Moving to a new place and starting over can be very efficient in recovery in my opinion.
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