Letter to my feelings

Letter to my feelings

Dear feelings, some time ago I wanted to write a few words of thanks for being there for so many years in good times and bad times.
A long time ago, when I was a kid, a day was crying I do not remember what the reason was but I felt it was a strange and bad feeling. I did not understand it, As a child you do not understand it. You know that crying is a bad thing and I did not like it. Then I swore that when I was older, I would never cry, that I would be strong and face life with courage.
Time passed and little by little I understood that feelings are manifested in various ways, happy and sad. And now at my 48 years I remember that promise, and I see that it is impossible to fulfill it, because it is enough to look at the injustices that exist in this world, the people who have left us and so many unjust things, for that you come out and manifest yourselves in the form of tears. If I recognize it, it is very difficult for me to hold back when thinking about those things but I am so sensitive. And for the sake of that I try so that you do not leave at certain moments, it is impossible to stop. Do you think it was easy when I recently talked with you to get the melody for my sister, that you never stopped going out and wetting the folio?
No, it is not easy to stay for a long time. But it is that you are so spontaneous and at the smallest jump. You have no remedy.
You are formidable when you manifest yourself in the form of laughter and joy or when you express yourself in a poem or poetry. You make me feel alive when I fantasize with a melody that I tried to find inside you and you give me just what I'm looking for. Because that's the way I like it, that you give life to my music and the way I express myself. It's how much more comfortable I feel with you. You also like to come out in the form of tears, sometimes of joy, sometimes of pain and sadness, but sometimes with a light of hope.
It is impossible for you to be locked up like a prisoner, you are always ready to leave at any moment and as I said before, it is very difficult for me to stay.
Finally I want to ask you a favor. I want you to always leave, whenever you feel like it, because if you ever refuse to leave, it would be terrible because it would mean that I would have become a frigid man, without heart, with a large vacuum, and a person without feelings is no longer a person, is someone for whom life would no longer have meaning.
So that you do not change, continue so many times at other times and at other times try to get out as little as possible. Thank you very much for being there.

Always yours, jose requena carrion