When I got lost
Lost in my thoughts.
I felt like an empty container.
I had no appetite.
Couldn't sleep.
In the solitude.
Spending seconds like hours.
Swimming between a thought gray sea.
I was not interested in anything.
Without feeling hot or cold.
Out of time.
A spiraling of upset.
Standing in the middle of a tiny breeze.
Floating in nothingnes.s
Already burnt.
Stuck on myself.
In the dispair.
The self portraits help to see itself so I started to do it.
I locked myself in the drawing to never feel this way again.